M:
There will always be people who attempt to elevate themselves by disparaging others. This is the nature of prejudice and it is unfortunate that it was visited upon you.
However, let us remember the positives here. You have dedicated you life to be part of an organization that protects your country and its inhabitants. Further, even as you work through personally difficult times, you have continued to do your job as always. To me, that speaks volumes about your priorities and the value you place on service. How can you not be an admirable person and worthy of of your position and uniform?
I am reminded of this passage from Marianne Williamson. While is holds true for all of us who transcend preconceived cultural boundaries, I think it is especially true in this situation.
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people will not feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone and as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give others permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.
To me, one particularly noteworthy part of that is: "We are all meant to shine..."
Anyway, as you read through the comments here, be reminded that we are all with you.
DeeAnn
