Thank you all for the kind words and support. Something of a common theme that i keep hearing is that i am moving too fast...and i think you are right. Most of it stems from just getting it done...and thats probably the wrong outlook. I shouldnt view it as another job i need to finish up. Its more than that and has no deadline. I will take this advise and not feel like i have to jump into the deep when whenever i dip my toes in the water.
I think i may try one of these makeover places someone suggested to me earlier...that and some therapy with someone that specializes in this type of thing. Feeling much better about the whole thing now. Thank you.
