I too live in a not so accepting area. Maybe not quite as intolerant as where you live, but its pretty rough here in my town. As others have said, you feeling trapped or forced into a closet is of your own doing. Having said that, I make the choice to stay in the closet. My life overall is a good one. It is a life I do not want to see altered to any great extent. But I do have the choice to alter it. In many ways, those of us who struggle with the choice to alter it set ourselves up by creating our life to not be very accessible to gender variance within ourselves. Then later on we have to make a harder choice to alter our relationships with the people we know and love, and perhaps relocate, or just cause a lot of upheaval in the life we have. But still, it is a choice, and if you feel at this point in life it is worth making, then you should.
