For me, the feelings of shame come and go. Sometimes I feel a feminine euphoria--the dreaded Pink Fog--where I am driven to dress, improve my appearance, and purchase new things, and in those moments I'm happy or even proud to be a CD/TG. That's when I feel emboldened to shop openly for women's clothes, dress in front of my wife, etc. Other times I am ashamed of the power this has over me, the time "wasted" on this obsession, and the amount of money spent.
