I have always felt you and I were in a similar situation as me. Although, you look better and have a way better stash. The biggest thing is the way you describe your wife opinions. Mine is exactly the same, lot's of acceptance for LGBTQ friends but that doesn't go for me. I have a little acceptance with the shaved chest and BB Cream type foundation but other than that it's no way. She wants a macho man. Tried the painted toes a bunch but she just hates.
Long story short, slow the purge. I just purged for the right reasons (long story) about 6 months ago and am slowly building up again. This is obviously a part of you and you will only end up spending more money to build up again which will lead to more guilt?
Have you ever tried therapy? I often thing that if I could talk this out with someone maybe I could wrap my head around how to tell her.
