Many of the things you have mentioned have happened to nearly all on here at one time or another. It's really hard to control the feelings, emotional thoughts and the dressing sometimes. I think we all have different levels of intensities though. For some it is deeper than for others for sure. Each of us seem to have different depths of dressing and degrees of dressing. You will find your level by experimenting. Caution this side can be costly and cause family issues, and for some even very serious conditions.