Thanks for all the replies, everyone! It was a really good idea to join this forum to meet others like me because I feel that I can pursue this adventure with a little more confidence. But to answer the question of having two "personalities," of course I don't think that's possible but it sure feels like it! As a guy, I'm strangely, naturally effeminate, but if I try, I can also be masculine, but that's only if I try. Sometimes when I'm out with my friends or in public my occasional effeminate tendencies start to become evident unconsciously, and I usually have to correct my behaviour, slap myself in the face and say "act like a guy, what are you doing?" Now that I started CDing, it feels as this feeling is becoming more prevalent, and it's more so stepping into my life while I'm in "guy mode." I'm well aware that yeah, blah, blah, blah it's 2018 and we live in a more progressive world of tolerance, I'm aware of this, but when I'm CDing I feel like I'm more free than when I'm a guy; I feel like I can breath better and I don't feel so constraint. I feel more confident. In a way, it just feels more right and more natural and it's an amazing feeling! I hope I don't sound crazy.
