I think we have had several discussions about the dressing where we have both been honest about it. One of our problems has been that she has been indulgent in the past but later said she was not as happy with it as she had let on. She did things to support me and later resented me for it.
I'm afraid that if she's saying yes right now I will find out later it was not sincere but done out of a feeling of obligation.
I suppose that fear is keeping me from trusting her.
I've put on a little weight this last 8 months or so and I'm feeling insecure about it. I think this is a big reason my desire to dress is spiking. I want to feel cute and self confident and dressing is an easy escape.
We had another conversation this week regarding our relationship and also the potential for panties. I left that conversation having said I would like to express that side of me, but I'm also afraid it will cause resentment in her and that she is more important to me than anything else in the world.
I think at this point I'm going to continue to refrain as we keep working on us.
Probably try to stick to a diet, keep up on male grooming for now, and we'll try to talk about this again as time goes on.
At least she knows where I'm at and I was honest.
