I've been semi-dressing around my wife alot the last few weeks, mostly at night after work and mostly just comfy nightgown Ts and dresses. She's grown used to it, though I think she would have a problem if I was wearing my boobs and wig, and why would I want to do that anyway. I've been looking forward all week to doing makeup, wearing my wig, and leaving the house as Sarah this morning but my actual life got in the way. I made a choice to spend the day with some friends instead of hiding out alone. It was a good choice and I had a great time.
The entire time i was with them I had zero pink thoughts, driving home I came to the conclusion that I was wasting too much time on girly pursuits and I needed to redirect myself to being the best man I could be. Then I got home and saw where I had taken off my bra before I left with them and felt strongly compelled to put it back on, and the dress too.
My online persona, the male one is constantly in competition for time with my female persona, and often the female wins out. The male version of me is neglected.
I keep thinking how much easier it could be if I could just stop all this subterfuge, and just combine Sarah and me, we like all the same things mostly. LOL
I had an interesting discussion with a coworker this week. She's openly bi-sexual and very forward thinking. We got to talking about gender issues somehow and I expressed that while I was all for people expressing themselves and trans people having equal rights I wasn't a fan of the current genderless trend that I'm seeing in today's younger people. She claims that the entire concept of gender is antiquated and is phasing out. I told her I thought gender was an important part of the human experience, and we had a very interesting discussion. I kept wanting to tell her that I felt like I was transgender, or sometimes I felt like I was, but that I definitely liked her clothes better then mine.