1/ What are your inner feelings when the pink fog starts you to thinking about wanting to cross dress (take off your male clothes and dress in girl clothes) ?
I feel normal. I don't need the onset of the pink fog. I always feel that I should be wearing girl clothing, no trigger needed.
2/ How do you feel when/while getting dressed in girl clothes (shaving legs, pubic area/ picking out panties and slipping them on, same with a bra and breast forms, hose, tight jeans or skirt, and the rest.
I feel normal, because it's what I feel like I'm supposed to be wearing.
3/ What does the full length mirror do for you ?
I don't look in mirrors when dressed as a female, because I cannot look even remotely like what I feel like I'm supposed to look like. I would not be any happier being an ugly, homely old woman than I am being an ugly, homely old man. At least as a man, dressing, appearing and behaving as a financially successful person will continue to make me attractive to those that i want to date, even if I am not a 'pretty' boy.
4/ How does it feel to walk out the front door, drive and walk through the mall and girl shop ?
n/a, I don't go out dressed.
5/ To come home, undress and evaluate the last four or five hours ?
I don't evaluate my dressing up as a female. I do it because it eliminates the always there feeling that I'm in the wrong clothes when I'm dressed as a male.
6/ Have you accepted, are you at peace being a crossdresser or ashamed and want to quit but can't?
I'm okay with it, but would want to quit because crossdressing severely limits the number of women I could consider for a long term relationship.
