Hi All,
I'm a bit confused and need your advice!
I told my SO about my CD preferences about 2 months ago, but I kinda tested the water by only talking to her about pantyhose to gauge reaction, which was supportive. However, she said if it went further to fully dressed she wouldnt like it. Since then, she has also tolerated suspenders, a half slip, and even brought me some knickers for Xmas which was lovely of her, and I took that as a bit of encouragement? Should I have? We also went shopping and she got me a silky ladiesdressing gown.
We have since had a few more talks, and shes fine with pantyhose, bodystockings, suspenders etc, but not bras, dresses or heels.
She has also painted my nails, fingers and toes, but wasnt too happy when I left toes painted for 2 days. She has also put makeup on me as part of our cozy evenings, but the pink fog then kicked in and I asked about wigs and heels. She said it might be fun but only if its not 'serious' and only if I dont get obcessed by it. She keeps asking if I want to take it further and go out dressed, which I don't.
I think she may be testing to see how far I want to take things with all we have done rather than it actually being supportive, its almost like.. if I say I want to dress fully she will leave me, and to be honest I am not even sure myself. If she aint happy with it and its gonna cause anguish or a relationship breakdown, I would rather it didnt go any further. Is it that? Or is she half happy with it?
Anyway, we chose x4 wigs together online, and a pair of heels, but when I got carried away and added x2 more wigs and another pair of sandals, she was very upset and called me selfish. Now that was my own fault.
She had let me shave my legs and chest, and even offerred to wax my legs. But all the time she says its ok because she still sees me as a man. She always seems to bring it back to me not displaying as feminine as she says shes straight. Fair enough. Half way maybe all I should do?
Anyways, what do y' all think?
Should I take what I have and not push the envelope? Its all happened fast for us both TBH. We also do some role play in the bedroom, and when the wigs came she kept them as she wants to do some dressing up too, I thought they would get chucked.
I have told her that all this stems from when I was about 10, growing up on the East Coast. Also said it relaxes me and is a form of escapism etc and not necessarily sexual.
She has been brill, but I also know that one false move and the whole relationship could collapse.
What do I do?
Help!
Thanks
Xx