So I’ve been on hormones a while now and I’m finally seeing some exciting changes. I am noticeably slimmer. My arms and shoulders are slowly shrinking. My skin is softening. I’m getting some breast tissue. My butt and thighs are plumping slowly. Most exciting of all this week was the first time since i was a teenager that I shaved my legs with out a lot of skin irritation. I’m so grateful for that bc body hair is an issue for me and it was painful at times to break out after shaving. I am feeling confused and frustrated sexually. I had a bout of feeling more interested in men which is fine and during that time I was only interested in a very submissive role in sex. Lately I’ve noticed an increase in attraction to women. Which has been the case most of my life. I’m happily bi so whoever I’m attracted to doesn’t bother me. What is difficult is that at the same time theses changes are happening i feel very poorly equipped physically to express myself sexually the way that I want to. For a long time making do with what equipment I do have was sufficient, but now nothing seems satisfying. Giving, receiving, top, bottom or whatever just isn’t getting it. Even when i achieve some physical release it’s very shallow and lack luster. It’s a new level of disphoria with my current equipment and it’s tough. I believe the ultimate answer is going to be SRS which has always been in the plan, but that’s a ways down the line. I hate to think I’ll feel this way for the next few years. Has anyone had any luck figuring this out?
