At certain times of year, it gets much stronger for me. I am a 65 yr old six foot six 260 lb guy, who does outdoor work, and gets dirty a lot and sweaty. I purged 99% of my stash a few yrs ago, and miss so many wonderful dresses and heels, and my best wig. I spent alot of money having dresses altered, too. At the time, trying to not dress again but the desire comes back stronger than ever. I must not let ti take over my whole life, though, as it could devastate my life, too, ruin my reputation with all my fellow senior neighbors, and get my into sexual meetings with admirers, and involved destructively. I am lifetime single, no girlfriends, but i have some old fashioned morals and values, also, which conflict. I am an addictive personality, and have some mental and emotional illnesses i battle all my life, and my whole family are sick, and toxic too , and parents were very troubled. Life is not easy for anyone, and much tougher for many. I wish i had not been born with the illnesses i have, nor this strong, strong unusual compulsion, as life has been hell enough, and i have been isolated too much. It is an escape, too, from painful maleness and being disenfranchised. It is so much blasted thrill, and fun, though!
