I was 12 the first time I wore women's clothing and the thoughts were always there but I never dressed fully until I was around 50. Raising kids, lack of privacy, shame and confusion, and limited access to clothes all contributed to holding me back. A few years ago it hit me one day that I had been holding it at arms length my whole adult life. Now I have accepted that I have some kind of gender issues going on and am on a quest to find out my place in the gender confusion spectrum and where it will take me. Not to be overly dramatic but I have always been a logical person who wants to weigh the pros and cons, evaluate and make informed decisions. This is the only thing in my life I haven't been able to control and evaluate the way I have with everything else.
