I havnt sort professional help on this issue but have tried a few things sexually which have helped me identify who I am. My wife is happy for me to live full time as a woman however she possibly knows I don't as there are major concequenses for my family that I will not put them through. I feel the kids will work it out one day. I've also lost more weight which is kinda feeding these feelings,I fear once I'm super happy with how I look I may not be able to suppress this any longer.