Over the years I didn't really go through emotional struggles over this "peculiar pastime,' as I regard it for myself. True, I became confused a couple times and purged. I chiefly became confused over what it actually means to me. Too many posts made me scared that this was a road that led unswerving to gender issues or Permanent changes -- before I recognized the great variety in cross dressing. Now I can understand that, for me, it is just something interesting I do for fun. I look forward to opportunities, but this isn't the only fun thing I do, so I have other outlets, be it working on lawn and garden, woodworking, music, family activities, or other hobbies. Now, I enjoy writing and exploring ideas that way (even though it can increase the desire for that sort of fun). I understand that for many cross dressing fulfills a deep need, and becomes a lifestyle. I'm fortunate in where I am.
