I can sure relate to what you say. I was super shy around girls, especially any i would like to date. So, i never went to a prom nor even asked anyone. I was miles behind the other guys socially, like a little kid, and i never dated until well into my 20's and rare, My first real girlfriend sadly moved to a distant city,and overdosed and died. I have never had sex with any women, even when they wanted me to. 67yo now.. I totally get what you wrote about CDing for the unmet needs and objectification.
