A very thoughtful and interesting post. These feelings, so eloquently described, are very relatable. The title also conveys a sadness that I have often considered how my being affects others. It can seem like it is something we pass on, so not only are we burdened with these anxieties, but also loved ones become affected. How often do we read that a loved one can accept our crossdressing as long as no one else knows. Our fears become their fears.
Hugs, Sharon.