Oh, what a perfectly vicious little brain loop.....
1 - no show better to dress up for
2 - feeling full-on fear at this "audacious move" on my part. I know I am capable of standing out this much...but ... anxious...
3 - angry at myself for not being already dressed....only 25 minutes to Showtime ...not enough time now
4 - sad at what feels like a missed opportunity now.
Wow, I am standing here, and have almost broken into tears a couple of times...
I have the guts for this...
Simultaneously, I feel so incredibly alone in this... (not the case, but I would be the only CD'er here, dressed)
Sorry girls. Pity party as coping mechanism. I'm okay.
(I will get dressed up later and show y'all what I had in mind for this)
😞
Jenny
