Long reply Out of the blue.

Just when I thought it could not get more complicated out of the blue came a text from the Greek girl.
I have been listening to other podcast by Mel Robbins on Avoidant traits.
So much of what she say has come about.
It has been a month since I posted The End and in truth I never expected any more contact such were the hurtful last words from her.
Today she was just commenting on some little things; just to break the ice so to speak.
Mel Robbins puts this down as the avoidant feeling back in control and safe in their own detachment.
Mel also advises no contact to show the avoidant that you are no longer available anytime they call.

My initial thoughts were not to respond but I have but many hours later and then only with minimal warmth and information.

In my own way of coping I will write about how I feel inside. This is really just for me as a therapeutic release. From the time I met the Greek girl to now I have filled 34 pages.
I had thought at one time to return a book she loaned me The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle. An extremely dry book about spiritualism which has taken me forever to finish. In order to try and take things in and understand what was being said I could only do so many pages in a day.
I did take something from this and it does apply to me.
I do not live in the past. When I transitioned I took on a whole new life. The book teaches that the past is gone. Yes it is. The future is yet to happen. So we need to live in the Now. So live for the moment and enjoy it.

So back to my thread. When I returned the book I would have left my new manuscript with her which would outline my thoughts on why she seemed so mean to me. From what I have observed and read she could well suffer from avoidant behaviour brought on by childhood memories which she has never truly dealt with.
My wanting to be close to her was scary and her reaction towards me was nothing personal.
At the time it was but I have a better understanding of the condition now.
Were I to leave my manuscript of my inner most thoughts this could drive a deeper wedge in any relationship we could try for especially if she she sees it as an attack on her mental psyche.
So what do I do?