So alone… my wife knows, of course. She is accepting but not enthusiastic lol. I have two friends that know but they live far away and have only seen me once - they also have plenty of their own problems to want to get deeply involved in mine. I had several estheticians and hair stylist friends about 6 or so years ago but I moved away and I find it a little creepy messaging them on social media … more my own shame and guilt I suppose than anything. But it was more of a “client that became a friend” situation than a real friend situation.