Everything you are going through is not out of the ordinary. You need not worry, YOU ARE NO FREAK ! Many of us began at different ages at different rates. But you sound more like you are trying to convince yourself, or justify what you are doing.
Now standing out back smoking in your undies will get you caught..
Only you can answer your questions, we are your sisters and are here to lend a helping hand when we can.
Welcome to the family.........
