In my opinion, that’s what makes us what we are. I'm certain there are many men that are regularly tormented with the notion of going fem, yet they never do it. To me, that seems like allot of wasted energy depending on the strength of the urges. Because if it is something one thinks about, but has to fight it off and suppress it, then one has the mind of a crossdresser.In my opinion, that is a crossdresser.That is some level of transgender.
If you think about it throughout your life and never do it, then you're just in denial of what you'd truly like to explore.This is why I don't see myself ever willfully purging again.The thoughts have been with me since I was roughly 5 years old.That's 30 friggin' years. I've gone long spurts where I didn't do it. Thought I'd left it behind. Then back it comes.The feelings, the desires.I could push it all away again in the heat of an angered moment. I might even believe it to be gone for good. But what about the next time it dawns on me that I'd like to feel fem.I don't act out on it becuase most of the world says it's wrong?I don't act on it becuase loved ones would feel uncomfortable with it? Are those same loved ones going to help me through the thoughts without judging me for even having them? Screw it, those that say it's wrong for me to do it would consider it wrong for me to even think about it in the first place. Which is something that cannot be controlled.Those people would say it is a flawed thought process from jump street. Yet no one has ever come up with a good reason as to why it's wrong.Beyond ,ofcourse, what many might inturpret the bible as stating on the matter. Which, if you ask me, is the root of the stigma placed upon all things not "straight".
So to some up; I'm a crossdresser becuase I think about dressing up like a women. Not just becuase I actually do it. My own opinion on myself. Hope you all enjoyed.Thinking out loud on a friday night non-fem.
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