...After my last 'cry me a river' thread I got to thinking about things.. My confusion, taking things one step at a time, that kind of thing. And now that my exams are over and school is done forever (the summer), the only thing stressing my out are my two jobs..but that's a different story.
I've decided to go full time male for a while, and at the same time going full time emo. As it stands I switch between genre's and genders constantly, and I thought..why don't I do one thing just for a bit. Try it on for size, see how I react to it.
So for a couple months I'm going to just be the emo male me. See how that feels.. but ...as decided as I was before, now i'm getting cold feet.
I'm generally eccentric enough that no one's really going to care, or that's my hope. But what if they do? What if I can't switch back after and I feel alienated... about portraying myself as a male full time.. and as an added bonus, I think emo is the most hated style in the world.
I was talking to one of my roommates about this and she is fairly out of the loop about my own crossdressing, she just thinks I'm weird, and she told me to go for it. That I'm still young enough to kind of play with my appearance, and that it won't affect my work at all...
My boyfriend hasn't really given me a straight answer on the subject, he said that i probably did have to do something like this. But he hasn't said whether he likes the idea or not.
But I do feel like I really need to do this .. to kind of go through that journey .. but I just.. don't know how it'll turn out.