I have lost patience with the fear of judgment and confusion from others.
I feel the words of Marianne Williamson. That I fear opening myself up and revealing my magnificence to myself and others MORE than all other fears.
I no longer fear my narcissistic tendencies. They are there, yet shame or guilt about them might lead me to hide myself, and create a tiny world where my narcissism would run rampant. Better to open the doors and windows and get myself out into the light, be who I am (and love) and use the energy I waste in secluding myself to particpate more in the world.
I put my avatar out there so I can be seen and appreciated and measured, and so any reaction toward me can be expressed. I can learn from positive or negative reactions (if positive and negative have any absolute meaning at all (LOL) !). I also feel more Real when I show myself, and hope I feel more Real to those who see me.
I put my avatar out there and change it as I change and grow and explore, and so my path and growth (or shrinking) is seen, and all can 'take my pulse'.
I'm not the same person who logged on here at first, and my avatar is one chronicle of my journey.
Roberta
