I've been unable to dress for a long time lately, pressures of work, then an illness that took me out for a month. I lost almost 30 pounds and have been struggling to regain my strength. 2 days ago however, my wife said she was off to Phoenix for the day, and to enjoy myself dressing while she was up there. Of course I did!
I'm not sure what has shifted, but I was quite forward about where I went this time. I usually try to not interact too much when out in public, but I had a whole different attitude this time. A couple of things happened that were good too.
I needed to use the restroom, so I stopped at a Target downtown where I knew there was a family restroom. I don't like to use the women's when busy, and it was busy out! I went to the family room, but it was locked up. I was about to leave when a sales associate came up and said "let me unlock that for you m'aam!" That was nice! And I spent quite some time in the store browsing with a lot of people around me. No worries.
Then I hit the sales in H&M, which was also busy, but again, no issues. People were very nice, with a lot of smiles at me Then I did something I have not yet done. I went to my local supermarket to get some groceries. Friday afternoon and it was very busy. I got what i needed, and then was waiting in line at the self checkout. It was taking time and I missed seeing one of the positions open up when it was my turn. Just as I saw it, a short man pushed past me to go to that position! I was not going to let that happen! I pushed right back in front of him with an emphatic "Excuse me!", and he shied off mumbling apologies. I think he was terrified by the tall woman he had pissed off! I knew a lot of the people in the place as I go there all the time, but no one had any idea it was moi underneath it all. I felt very comfortable and normal, and I have turned something of a corner.
This is what i was wearing out there...
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I can't wait til I get the chance to go out again