If you could be 18 again in 2016, not married, not in love, no kids or real commitments, mediocre job that paid for food, your own apartment, car and know what you do now; would you pursue crossdressing further, even to try it for a year or so? Such as at 18 you are of legal age and you could start hormone therapy (at this young age just out of puberty your body would respond and get better results than if you started at 50; testosterone blockers, estrogen enhancers to start growing breasts, hips, etc. to start changing your male body to a female body). Grow your hair long, earrings, dress in girl clothes as much as you wanted and even live as a woman. 99% say if you are born a CD it's there for life. If YES to the question wouldn't this allow you to find out how male or female you wanted to be and then chart your own future. Not like some on this forum that because of commitments to their family/job or a controlling wife prevent you from being the more feminine and happier person than you desire to be.