I know this will be a roller coaster ride, emotionally and physically but right now I am sitting in the front seat with my hands in the air
Earlier thread I talked about my visit to my doctor and how the counseling department called before I even left the exam room. I called them back and made an appointment (July 10th...that is fast I think) and they gave me the name of the person I would be seeing. I was worried (Kaiser) that I would get someone without any TG background. When I mentioned the name though to some of my friends I found out that who I am seeing has personal experience with transitioning.. Hope that is a good thing. (now wondering what I should wear to my first visit)
second major event...
I talked to my mother Sunday (she is in California and we talk every weekend) and some how in the conversation about Father's Day (I told her I left a message with Dad...) she said "Your father didn't want daughters." OK so I wasn't thinking (It was PRIDE weekend here and I was hot and sweaty and tired and on my first Margarita) and without thinking I said "Well that's too bad because he has one now." There was a short pause on the line then. My mom knows about me but she just thought I was a CD. She asked what I meant. I told her about my plans to transition now. She said "are you sure?". I said yes. She said "you know it is hard to be a woman" I said yes. She said are you having surgery. I said yes...eventually. She said "ouch". Literally, that is all she said Ouch. Not, don't do it, how could you ruin your body?, are you crazy? Just Ouch. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. Either that or after she hung up she screamed...I don't know. But I think she knew long before . Mom's know. So one hurdle cleared. My father is going to be a lot harder. He doesn't even KNOW about Lori. And he never wanted a daughter...