Just last night I posted my first avatar/picture on the Picture and Video Gallery after over 3 years of membership. What a discovery! I've never been fond of pictures of myself (a little too much reality). I got rid of the few old (film) pics I had, and I have only 2 pics of me on my computer.
Looking at everyone else's pics, I was just WAY too intimidated to post my own. It was very much what it must be like to be at a large gathering and look in the ballroom filled with beautiful women and being afraid/too self conscious to enter.
Well, I finally got up the nerve to enter. If I'd planned it I probably wouldn't have done it. I had cut my shopping trip short, started to get undressed, already took off my necklace and earrings, and decided I hadn't quite had enough. I snapped a few pics, went through the tutorial on posting pics, took a few deep breaths, and... walked into the room!
I surprisingly found everyone to be so nice, welcoming, and gracious! It was truly a new level of being out! I've been to 2 support group meetings years ago. I wasn't comfortable. I go out a lot. Shopping, hair and nail salons. I'm not a club person. My favorite place is a beauty school. Lots of beautiful young women, a large open environment (no place to hide!), and new girls to meet every few months. They all go out of their way to be nice to me. They make me feel like a minor celebrity. I often stop by and get a polish change just to get my girly fix. Getting my hair and nails done is almost old hat to me. Being around these wonderful girls in this very feminine environment is always a big upper.
Posting pics here is very much like that. If you haven't tried it, you should. After all these years I feel much more a part of this accepting community, and I'm no longer hiding behind a blank avatar. It may not seem like much to the rest of you, but for me, it's a whole new level of being out! Thanks!
Originally Posted by Rhonda Jean
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