I'm sitting here this morning and I'm doing a little chuckling inside...thinking about yesterday and then thinking about how it was when I started dressing a year and a half ago...
Like a lot of girls here...especially the enw ones coming on the forum, I was jsut starting to dress and I would read about some of you who were going out regularly and as "matter of factly" as well....and I simply couldn't imagine being able to do that or even having the nerve to do it...OMG never!!! But I also thought how lucky others were to be able to actually be able to go oit into the real world....to go shopping dressed or even just go and buy woman's clothing without batting an eyelash....It was just something I would wish I could do....
Fast forward a year and a half later to yesterday....
I needed to replace some concealer that one of my pups got ahold of and Hmmm "destroyed"...so off to Ulta. I was dressed in male mode BTW...I also wanted to get a couple of additional eye shadows in their cream blend. I went in and one fo the SA's asked if I needed help and I told her what I was looking for...and she took me over to where it was. She asked me if I knew what sahde she used? and I said no I don't but it's for em...I dress...and DeDe did a make over for me a couple of weeks ago and she picked it out...she didn't even bat an eye and didn't have one of those internal OMG a freak namo moment in facial experession....she simply did a OK lets match your skin tone up....and she slected two shades and she said lets try it on you...and she said under the eys or on the back of your hand???? We did the hand and found the shade that worked...we chatted a bit about make up and what "challenges I ahd and how were were addressing the various issues and she seemed to throughly enjoy talking about it...told ehr how I had some pictures that I showed some f the girls working there when I first came in...however was very OK with me dressing etc and she said hey that's not a problem with most of us...actually we kind of like it because it's different for us with the regular clients aka women....So I got done there and went and selected several eye shadows and a couple of briushes...and then went to pay for the stuff...and did so with the I belong here and it's no big deal attitude....
While I did this I had a female friend with me and she was outside having a smoke but did come in and joined me...
After we left there it was off to Walmart to buy some food and other things....of which I wanted to get two bras from there...so we got to the woman's section and I went and located the bra's I wanted and selected the two in the color and size I wanted....Leaving that section we went though shoes ectiona dn I saw a nice pair of mules/slides...so I stopped looked at them and took off my shoe and tried on a size 10 and 11 and decided on the 11...so they went into the carriage....while I was doing this several woman passed us by but I didn't noticed any stares or looks but then I wasn't really paying attention....nor did I really care....any form of embarressment wasn't present...
Then it was off to Sally's Beauty Supply....went in to get some nails and selcted several different styles...and on the way out I checked out their cream eyeshadow and selected three colors. Went up to pay for them and the woman said the colors were nice...hope she likes them and I said I'm sure I will...they'll work with my coloring...and she said Oh these are for you???? and I said yup...and I'm getting to the point where I'm getting pretty good working with make up now so I can get colors and blends down...well that freakin opened up the door asd far as she was concerned...she started asking me all kinds of questions..how come I use make up and I said I dress...as in cross dresser...and she asked me about that and then we got back on make up and I told her I have whole new respect for woman and all they have to go through and doing nails and the finished looks...etc...told her I had some pictures etc....from a make over I had done a few weeks ago at Ulta..some of the comments I got from the SA's there....all in all we talked for about 10 minutes....Not sure who enjoyed it more...her from talking to a guy who dresses as a female or me expelaining and being out and up front with her about being a dresser....either way we both seem to enjoy it equally....
So yeah, I think back to where I was when I first started and where I am as of yesterday....and all I can say is it's simply amazing as far as then and now...and being out and about.
Now that's not saying everyone of you girls can be out and about...some for wahtever reason have to stay in the closet....but for those of you that someday hope to be out or can be out...trust me...it's not that hard to do it...yes it takes some getting use to, but once you "stick those cute little painted toes of yours in the water"...there is no going back and who knows....one day you'll be out and about in your own girly self either in drab or out shopping dressed going out to eat or hitting the clubs as your female self...and then just might find yourself chuckling to yourself as well....and thinking my how far I have come....and realizing that this out and about thing is a blast!!!!
Stephanie