It's been a strange but beautiful month. For the full story on how I accidentally outed myself to my wife of 13 years/sweetheart of 20 years, read my thread called "Well, I got caught..."
Basically, I was caught looking on this forum, and for my wife, it was a mixed bag of shock, and relief when all my strange behaviour of the last 2 years (like hours on Second life, and some pretty unusual webpages accidentally left in the History) was suddenly explained, and it turns out I was a) not seeing anyone else, b) still me, just me with a little 'issue'.
I got some great advice from this forum about issues she would have to deal with, things like worrying if her masculine partner was gone forever, and things I would have to deal with, like the fact that she felt decieved for the last 20 years. Those issues don't disappear in a few weeks, so the most important thing we learned from this forum was to talk, talk, take it slow, respect each others fears, talk some more, and then, finally, talk some more. And then talk.
My wife has been a rock. She was initially shocked, but more intrigued as to how all the pieces of me that hadn't added up now fell into place like a perfect, complete Rubik's cube. The consistency of it all increased her trust in me, and her acceptance increased my trust in her. She is still not ready to see me dressed, but has offered to help me with my makeup on that fateful day, as a way of sharing the experience. It may be easier than walking in the room en femme with bated breath. She knew I was going away for a night on business, and packed me a bag with some makeup, some of her clothes, and even a pantyliner, so it would look like it was her bag 'in case someone looked'. She tearfully presented me with some lingerie that she had purchased for herself, a few years ago, when she was trying to jump-start our sex life. She has allowed me to keep things in the house, locked in case the kids wander around, and we can make jokes about how wierd I am. (My fantasies involve both CD and some bondage). She knows about that, too, and we have spiced up our own sex life a bit, too. There is a new honesty and trust between us that is liberating. Of course, if she ever threatens divorce, I'll have to do her in, because I will never be ready for the world to know what she knows.
I have been asked questions that I never thought to ask myself, and the answers are an education for me.
"What about dressing makes you feel good - the clothes, or the image?"
"Do you want to be a woman?"
"If you could, would you dress as a woman every day?"
"Why do you want to dress in public, as opposed to just at home?"
"Are you sexually attracted to or stimulated by the other people on the forum, or their pictures?"
"If you don't want to physically be a woman, and you're not trying to pick up other CD'ers, then why adopt the feminine speech patterns and the cute comments about each other's shoes, or skirts?"
These are all questions that I had an answer to, but that I had not really thought deeply about. The answers surprised me, and I think they helped explain some things to my wife. I still am stuck with things even I cant explain; there are things which aren't logically consistent, but .... they just ARE.
Anyway, enugh. Cheers, MK
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Put a little lipstick on you'll feel better
Originally Posted by kimdl93
or candy or Dimonds.... What ever she like to make sure she does not hate you. And tell her you love her when ever your leaving the house or on the phone.... Allways. Good luck Hun my best wishes are with you. 
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