Good advice Reine, can't add anything to it except to agree with Toni that you were correct to try things out.

Everyone has lots of fantasies (boy and some of mine are so far out), but in the end you can only work out what really 'rocks your boat' by actually trying things out.
If they work great, if not then you know that it is not for you and you can go and find out what does.

Humans have pretty weird sexualities (though we like to pretend we don't) and CD/TG/TS people tend to be a bit weirder than most.

Good on you Toni you know more about yourself, good luck in finding that 'boat rocking'