My wife and I have been married three years but I didn't tell her about my cross-dressing until a couple months ago. I haven't cross-dress since we've been married other than wearing lipstick when I was alone, but she still didn't take it well. I told her I would stop wearing lipstick since it upset her so badly and I really would but after a couple of weeks she said she wanted me to be me, and I took to mean, that so long as she wasn't exposed it was okay, that was a mistake. I found this blog and began to post threads and comment on threads and even made a few new friends. One night after I had gone to bed she opened my iPad and found the blog and read all my posts and was very upset to say the least. I never thought she would go through my personal things so I didn't lock the iPad, another mistake. She woke me up and told me that she felt betrayed and cheated on and wanted a divorce, and no amount of begging from me could change her mind. I'm now living in my old house that we had rented out after we married. Im free to do what I want now but somehow my heart just isn't in it.