Man or Woman? Woman please!
My COGNATI score was 190, which makes me an almost ideal candidate for SRS. I think that answers the question: YES I would LOVE to be a girl full time. Except for the sex, from my present point of view I shudder at the thought of having sex with a man...and I still enjoy watching a pretty woman walking by. Especially when she's dressed to the nine's. So does that make me a nut case?
Most of my male life happened before the arrival of the Internet and thus I lived my life as a man as good as I could, never really understanding what was "wrong" with me. Now that I know, or think I know, it is too late for a sex change, but I vowed to come back as a girl the next time around if I'd had a choice. I would take all the so called "negative" aspects from being a girl with pleasure, including PMS, period, child birth and menopause. Whatever it takes.
Every time I dress, I can't get out of my female cloths because I hate it with a passion to get back in my "utilitarian" male clothing. And that brought me in trouble, because I waited way too long and on one bad day I was "busted".
Often I am almost offended when I see a woman that dresses sloppy and with disregard for her femininity. When I see that she takes her femininity so much for granted, I mean. I would wish that I could trade places with her, because I envy the femininity she's born with, something I need so much effort for to mimic while she seems to not care exploiting it. If she doesn't care to look feminine, she can have my male-ness, here and now... I am kidding of course, but with a serious undertone, because she has the right to express herself any way she wishes. So I'd better control my envy.
As a male I hate it to be photographed and about the only pictures taken from me were the ones on my passport and drivers license. From Dita I have now hundreds of pictures, because I love the woman I see in the mirror.
For what concerns doing/missing the stereotype male things? I can't care less. I don't care for sports and such. I am in business for myself and could easily do my line of work as a woman too... hey, perhaps even better as a woman.
So I would vote for being woman full time, hands down. If it were only 20 years earlier...
:love: Dita
Most of the "GUY" things I like to do are pretty butch..
Welding, Driving, Wrenching, Rockhounding etc. But I don't think I would like them any less if I had been born a girl.
I was stuck by posts that talked about not liking the man in the mirror though. Objectively, I am a handsome enough man, used to mostly have physique issues, but not anymore. However I too hated (and have grown to tolerate) having my picture taken en homme. As Barbara, I love having my picture taken, constantly thinking about poses and clothes and so on.
I kind of wish I could have gone through my childhood and adolescent years as a girl, and suddenly crossed over to maleness in my mid to late twenties. Would have liked to have avoided the bullies, worn all those 80's styles (bring back the peplum blouse with the tulip skirt!).
I am pretty comfortable in my male skin these days, which is why I am baffled by the urge to dress now.
