My COGNATI score was 190, which makes me an almost ideal candidate for SRS. I think that answers the question: YES I would LOVE to be a girl full time. Except for the sex, from my present point of view I shudder at the thought of having sex with a man...and I still enjoy watching a pretty woman walking by. Especially when she's dressed to the nine's. So does that make me a nut case?

Most of my male life happened before the arrival of the Internet and thus I lived my life as a man as good as I could, never really understanding what was "wrong" with me. Now that I know, or think I know, it is too late for a sex change, but I vowed to come back as a girl the next time around if I'd had a choice. I would take all the so called "negative" aspects from being a girl with pleasure, including PMS, period, child birth and menopause. Whatever it takes.

Every time I dress, I can't get out of my female cloths because I hate it with a passion to get back in my "utilitarian" male clothing. And that brought me in trouble, because I waited way too long and on one bad day I was "busted".

Often I am almost offended when I see a woman that dresses sloppy and with disregard for her femininity. When I see that she takes her femininity so much for granted, I mean. I would wish that I could trade places with her, because I envy the femininity she's born with, something I need so much effort for to mimic while she seems to not care exploiting it. If she doesn't care to look feminine, she can have my male-ness, here and now... I am kidding of course, but with a serious undertone, because she has the right to express herself any way she wishes. So I'd better control my envy.

As a male I hate it to be photographed and about the only pictures taken from me were the ones on my passport and drivers license. From Dita I have now hundreds of pictures, because I love the woman I see in the mirror.

For what concerns doing/missing the stereotype male things? I can't care less. I don't care for sports and such. I am in business for myself and could easily do my line of work as a woman too... hey, perhaps even better as a woman.

So I would vote for being woman full time, hands down. If it were only 20 years earlier...

Dita