I just want to be a pretty girl! Is that so wrong?
Some of u know me, some don't. Here's where I'm coming from with this post. If it's too long for u, skip to the bottom numbers:
I'm over 60, started CDing in my 50's. At the time, I was just divorced and fed up with women. Also, I had completely lost interest in sex. Anyway, like others here, out of the blue, I started dressing up. I knew I was too old to become an attractive woman. But, I decided I at least I could have breasts!
After about a year of herbs and suction devices, that urge passed. But, NOT the urge to CD! I continued to improve my fem figure, but was VERY unhappy with my fem face! It was WORSE with makeup on! I just looked like a homely, old man in a dress! I began to dress less and less. Until one Halloween, I tried on a mask. It was an epiphany! I realized with a good mask, maybe I could look like a woman. Not just a woman, an ATTRACTIVE woman! Sherry was born! And I hoped to be rid of Robert in a dress, forever!
All my life, I've appreciated attractive women. My girlfriends, my ex, ( who was a Las Vegas show girl), were all pretty. Suddenly, about 7 years ago, a pretty woman appeared in my mirror! It was so exciting! And the first real turn on I had experienced in YEARS! My special faces became a routine part of my CDing. And I continued to dress in COMPLETE isolation until last year.
Now, 7 years later, I continue to try to make Sherry MORE attractive, erotic, and feminine appearing TO ME! I STILL get just as excited and turned on as I did years ago! If I do her looks rite!
When I discovererd this site last year, after all my years of CDing in isolation, I naively assumed EVERYONE dressed for the reasons I did! However, I may be more the exception than the rule here! So, I'm trying to explain WHY I DRESS! I know there r others here who dress for the same reasons I do. And if given MY circumstances, mite be doing some of the same things I do! But, many of u DON'T have a clue why I'm so active in the forum, but CD the odd way I do!:eek:
1. I don't desire to be a female. All thots of that, and having real breasts, have passed! If I have a female side, I'm NOT aware of it yet!:straightface:
2. It's all about the illusion I see! It's VERY exciting for me, and CAN be a huge turn on. Depending on how good Sherry looks that day! At over 60, not much else is exciting, or a turn on for me any more!:o
3. The more attractive and erotic/exotic the female illusion appears, the better! It's like being with a completely different woman! The more I see a man in a dress in my mirror, or pics, the more the illusion is ruined for me! :sad: Dressing to pass, in dull, ordinary, plain outfits, poses no thrill for me! With my masks, it's not possible to pass anyway!
4. Am I a fetish dresser? Yes, of course! But, my "fetish" is appearing to have become an attractive young woman! Anyone else have THAT fetish? :D
The mask and my female suit don't do ANYTHING for me! No rubber fetish. No "masking" fetish. ( Whatever that is!?) They help make the illusion more realistic for me! Nothing else! If I looked as good as some of u younger girls, I wouldn't use them at all! But, I can't, unless I cheat! So, I CHEAT! So what? Is THAT so wrong!? :sad: After all, which of u DOESN'T cheat in some way?
In many ways, my dressing experience is like most everyone elses here! My methods, may be a bit different. But, I think my dressing experiences r often the same as most of u! Like most here, I do the best I can with what I've got! And doesn't EVERY CD want to look pretty? :heehee:
Do u agree? Or disagree? U can flame me up if u like! :Angry3:
I've learned A LOT in my year here. But, I still have SO MUCH more to learn about my CDing!:thumbsup:
I probably learn more from your brutal honesty, than your niceties!:hugs:
Ask the right question...
You ask if it's OK to wish to be a pretty girl, but you write:
*** Now, 7 years later, I continue to try to make Sherry MORE attractive, erotic, and feminine appearing TO ME!***
First, it's OK to wish... But, wish for something within reason.
In this instance, if you wanted to look like a pretty girl and you were an average crossdresser, you'd shoot for doing the best you could while using the same tools most women use: clothing, hair, and makeup. If you were TS or TG, you'd go a lot further to alter your appearance, but you'd keep working with the basics, or, to the basics.
Now, ask the right question for your activity:
"Is it OK to wish to be a pretty girl and do all this - fixed masks and so forth - just to get my rocks off at my reflection?"
Sir/Madam, those are your rocks. Do what works for you. Just don't confuse your sexual fantasies with everyday reality - that would be unhealthy for you. Do what you need to do, put the stuff back where it goes, continue with your day.
So long as you can do that, no harm done to anyone. In fact, from what you say, it rather energies you as a person. That's probably a good thing...
You mention that you're on this forum a lot. You seem to be well received. I would suggest you do what you like at home, and, when out, present as any older woman normally would.
As grandma used to say, "I'm not much, but I'm all I got."
We loved her anyway.
Thank u all for your posts!
It took me a while to gather myself to reply to your posts. As usual, I underestimated the honesty, acceptance, and caring from all of u out there! And I wasn't prepared for your posts and PMs. There's so much :love: here! It makes me emotional! So, maybe I DO have a fem side after all!?:)
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Originally Posted by
MarcieM
You say you don't do this because you have any kind of fetish. Fine if you say so, but I'm not sure about that.
I think that many people on this forum, if they were being completely honest, would say it's very weird and creepy. IMHO, you look like a dead person or some kind of bizarre freak most of the time.
Thanks for your honesty Marcie. I wanted that! Altho, u may have misunderstood my post. I AM a fetish dresser! And there r a lot of others here like me! But, as u said, there r also a lot of others that see me as "creepy"!:doh:
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Originally Posted by
maryklinden
You ask if it's OK to wish to be a pretty girl, but you write:
*** Now, 7 years later, I continue to try to make Sherry MORE attractive, erotic, and feminine appearing TO ME!***
First, it's OK to wish... But, wish for something within reason.
In this instance, if you wanted to look like a pretty girl and you were an average crossdresser, you'd shoot for doing the best you could while using the same tools most women use: clothing, hair, and makeup.
Now, ask the right question for your activity:
"Is it OK to wish to be a pretty girl and do all this - fixed masks and so forth - just to get my rocks off at my reflection?"
Sir/Madam, those are your rocks. Do what works for you. Just don't confuse your sexual fantasies with everyday reality - that would be unhealthy for you. Do what you need to do, put the stuff back where it goes, continue with your day.
Your point is well taken, Mary. However, I'm over 60. In that time, I don't recall ANYONE saying I was a "good looking guy". And I've suffered my male face in the mirror all those years! Now, I get to see what looks like an attractive young woman for a change. I'm TIRED of the "plain" look! Is that so hard to understand?:straightface:
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Originally Posted by
battybattybats
People change their appearance and
And as long as it only involves adult humans without cognitive impairment giving fully informed consent then a sexual practise, no matter how uncommon, is right and not wrong.
Making you Sherry far more right in your sexual behaviour than the average person who has a one-night stand with someone who is drunk (cognitively impaired). Yours is less common but right, theirs is very common and yet wrong!
Batty, u r rite. But unfortunately, Mary is also! I have plenty of guilt associated with my dressing! No matter how much I tell myself I'm NOT harming anyone with it! It has NOTHING to do with the gimmics I use to improve my looks, and EVERYTHING to do with the fact that I "get off" from CDing! I KEEP WAITING FOR THIS PHASE TO PASS! I know it will, eventually!:sad:
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Originally Posted by
sterling12
How about you do us a favor, try on some make-up and let us see this mature woman. Perhaps if you get some reassurance it's OK to also be her, you might occasionally grace us with her presence. Right now, we don't even know her name. Perhaps some of us would like to meet her. After a year and a half, you can trust us enough. Let us see her Doc.
Peace and Love, Joanie
Amanda also mentioned showing my face. Which I WILL do one day. However, I'm NOT likely to wear makeup over my facial hair! :heehee: And, as far as meeting Sherry, I'd love to meet her, too! At present, I'm only aware of her in my mirror and pics.:sad:
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Originally Posted by
AmandaM
Seriously, I consider you a fetishist, not a vanilla crossdresser. But, that's just me.
"Fetishist"? Guilty, as charged!
"Vanilla"? Never have been. Don't expect to start now!:eek:
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Originally Posted by
Aurora27
Not necessarily - I always wanted to look striking.
I ALWAYS shoot for "striking"! Rarely do I approach it, tho. So, when I think I'm "pretty", I'm quite satified!:D
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Originally Posted by
Edyta_C
And on occasion do the Photoshop thing to make my pix better. The models do it so why can't I. So you might try makeup and Photoshop.Hugs Edy
Actually, I HAVE used Photoshop like alterations on my pics. Back in the years when I dressed in a vacuum! I still have a few of those old modified pics! But, they look like cartoon characters. Like Roger Rabbit's wife!
I prefer to post pics that look like the women I see in the mirror. I'm all about using every trick in the visual book, to make them look better. But, I feel if I post Photoshopped pics, it's cheating somehow! Weird, huh? I DO think if u spend your time working on your photos, it's WAY more creative than watching the boob tube!
Thank u all again! Happy Holidays to ALL!:hugs:
