I don't understand why this is happening to me. Maybe some mature, more experienced reader(s) can help?
Let me explain.
I dress in the closet, and I always dress completely. I try to remember every detail, altho that's getting more and more difficult as I add more layers and go to detailed dressing levels.
I dressed last week and again last nite. Once again, as I looked at the convincing, attractive, young female in the mirror, I was shocked and stunned by what I saw! I can only relate the feeling as being similar to that of a young man seeing his gorgious date naked for the first time! The rush, the high, the feeling is quite indescribable! And also the disbelief that this is actually happening to me! ( And that the image IS actually me!) My feelings overwhelm me for a second.
At that moment last nite, I thot to myself, " How I can I still feel this way after all these years of CDing? Especially at my age? Why isn't CD getting old? When will it be common place for me?"
Here's what I don't get.
I was married for 7 seven years, with her for 10. After the first 3, getting sexually excited became more and more difficult. Yet, she was very pretty and always interested in sex.
As a young man, I always felt turned on being with a new woman. But girl friends became less exciting after a number of times in bed. Sex always became, "just same old thing" again.
I've been dressing for 10 years. I'm 60 years old. How can I still be having these over the top urges when CDing? Why is it still so sexually exciting and such a turn on? Still so overwhelming and compelling?
Why do I still keep feeling like a teenager on a first date?
I may have a greater variety of different faces and characters than many of u. But that doesn't explain why these feelings ALWAYS happen to me. I recognise all my female characters quite well, after all the years. And yet they all still have the same effect on me!
My question to u:
Why is this happening to me, and when will it end? Does ANYONE have, or had, similar experiences CDing? Did u have it and finally move on? I'm really confused!
How long can a 60 year old go on like this? Don't get me wrong. I'm having the time of my life, but sometimes I'm frightened by it all! I know it MUST end sometime! But I don't think I WANT IT TO!
I would appreciate any and all input!
