It was so very confusing to me. I don't know if it was learned or genetics or inheritance. I do know that after a shower as young as 4 and 5, I would wrap the towel around my waist and I remember many times pretending that I was one of my attractive aunts. Then later on around the ages of 6 through 9, for halloween, I would always dress as a girl, and went to halloween parties as a girl. I would wear my sister's clothes and the feeling was awsome, but I never said anything about how it made me feel at that time. It all did seem so natural for me tho. The boys in school would always say, you look like a girl, or you throw like a girl, etc. I had to work hard at walking, and talking, more masculine things to be like my peers at the time. I knew I was supposed to be a guy, but why did I feel so different inside I wondered through all the years? And now, I understand that this is me, having to hide my feminine side from the world......love & respect....Tara
