Ok so I'm in one of those moods and kinda tired of seeing threads made about GGs in general about the question I asked in my anonymous GG post which reine do kindly posted for me. Which ok some very few actually understood kinda what I was asking and still a lot of you missed my point in general. And I'm not going into it any further. But you now see why some of us GGs use the ability to have our questions posted anonymous. Cause there are many that will sit and attack us for questions. I'm sorry to those GGs who were put into the same category as myself when the posts were made. I did not mean to offend anyone I had a question. And the simple way I should of asked it is why do you (not ALL ofcourse I'm not that dumb to group u all in one group cause u all are different) why do some participate in the panty color thread the breasts or vagina thread and others that seem so Juvenal to me being a grown woman. I have words for actual women who flaunt their panty info or talk about things to basically get attention like that. That's not what emulating a woman is really about or at least IMO. Yet I see the excuse of that some of you are in that "young girl" stage but yet that just kinda makes me sick thinking about it since really you all are grown men so what's wrong with acting like a grown "woman".
I'm so very sorry if I'm not as accepting as some GGs on this forum. But you know how I see it... I discovered on my own after 20yrs together and 15yrs married. He did not tell me on his own. When I found out he did not have warmth in his eye and did not say he was sorry for keeping this from me or that he was sorry he was hurting. He just plainly said to me "this is who I am and it's not going to change". So yes I was hurt and in shock and a lot of pain YET you know what I did I went head in joined here did what I could to learn more and ask questions here cause my husband doesn't like to talk about it. I decided that I would be as accepting as I could at that time which was a lot when on the inside I was still hurting so bad. Things were done begins my back yet I still pushed through my sadness to make sure HE was happy. NONE of this time was I ever asked if I was OK. This is the only place I have to talk about it and ask questions and receive virtual hugs. These are the things I need to become OK.
When I first came to these forums I looked in this section. It took my breath away and not in a positive way. WHY can't you all post some of the topics in your GMA section. Away from new wife/gf eyes. Some things can hurt a lot and then we come to the conclusion that heck you all must think like this topic. But then again I think some of these topics you must want in the section to somehow "show off"
So I'll end this with a apology to GGs that got brought into my mess I started. And sorry to those CDers that I am not 100% accepting or even 50% accepting. I am one of those hurt SOs that you put into a group. But I see my ways of being a accepting wife. I'm still married and I try to make my husband happy before I think of myself. Yet I'm working on making myself happy now too cause no one else is going to give it a try I've figured out in the last year.
I'm sorry to anyone who takes offense to this post. I was tired of all the b*thching about the question I had reine ask for me. To all my CD friends on here I hope you arnt too offended either. I've realized now it doesn't matter if I post as a anonymous GG or in self. My feelings got hurt either way. At least this way you can PM me if you have issues.
