Has this Forum Changed you?

[Greenie]

This post is my 500th post, and this month, I think last week was my one year anniversary at this forum.

I wanted to know if participating in this forum has changed you?

Since I started I have met some wonderful people. GG's who I have cultivated friendships with, CDers I have had long long long conversations with, who I cannot wait to meet in person one day.

I have noticed in this last year, that this environment, thought supportive, often scares me.

I have met CDers insistent that its "just clothes" who are TS now, in only a year. This frightens me for Luca and I's future.

In the last year we have explored wigs, dresses, shopping, dressing rooms mishaps, pedicures, nail polish, Dressing in the bedroom, matching heels and panties, as well as lingerie. I have been comfortable with somethings we have tried, and uncomfortable with others.

It has been a wild year. We have fought, we have cried, smiled, laughed, and we have gotten through most humps. We are even engaged now!

I am not going to lie. I know that most of you have come to accept and be aware of my open book policy, and my intense amount of honesty. This CDing thing is hard for me. I struggle between wanting to be the most accepting person I can be, and then having bad days where this seems like to much.

For those with openly accepting wives and SO's, you are so lucky, but she is lucky to be able to be the strong woman that I wish I was everyday.

This forum has helped me immensely in trying to become that woman. No matter how many hard days I have, there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Thank you Sandra, Reine, Mimi, Jenniferathome, Joanne, PaulaQ and many many others who have been important to me here.

I would like to know from others here, how the forum has helped you? How have you changed since you joined? If you have that is? What is the most valuable thing you learned about yourself and CDing since joining.

Love you all
Kae