I've been bi-curious for many years but never did until a couple of months back. I see the crossdressing bit as totally unconnected to it. A totally different issue altogether. Although the crossdressing I found made it surprisingly easy to pick up guys. The offers I received were unreal, bloody flattering really. Why can't I have this kinda luck with the ladies?
Anyway as I was saying, I tried it with a guy a couple of months back for the first time, and I regret it.
I immediately ran a hot bath after he went to wash it all away. I felt violated, although it was my fault but now I kinda understand how women must feel. His smell seemed to linger in the room for days. I didn't feel turned on like I do with a woman and just went through the motions just waiting for it to be over. I do feel shame and regret, but then if I never tried it then I would still be thinking about doing it for the rest of my life which would drive me bonkers.
So, being bi-curious and even experiencing it to find out I believe doesn't automatically mean you're gay, confused sure until after you find out if you like it or not. I didn't care for it. I'm not in denial, I now consider myself straight and not bi. At least I know now, at a heavy cost.
