You can't advertise "Crossdresser looking for a relationship with a women" and get a decent return on that ad! Dating is numbers game at best, you need to date women. More than one to meet the right one (normally) Your not hiding anything by staying quiet about it. Look...When you meet the right one and time has revealed she is worthy of knowing then tell her, or don't. The price of meeting the right women is to keep the CD thing to yourself until such time you feel you can bring it up. She's not going to tell you if there is an "abnormal" or freeky thing that she is into on the first date. Nor do people air their dirty laundry on the first date, normally. Get into that later. You need to stop CDing enough to get out and meet some women dude. Start thinking of yourslef as a dude. CDing is a side thing. If you treat it as more than that your going to have very tough time meeting a women, they wont respond to that type of ad.

I do think there is a fair amount of self dulision that goes on here. It seems to get passed along quite a bit. Everything has a price. You can't have your cake and eat it also.

What do you want? What's the price? Resolve to pay that price, then get busy.

Fire away.