Kayla,
I read your thread and the posts of the girls here and your posts and I feel you need to take a step back from all of this and really contemplate what truly is important to you. I can't answer that question for you. I can only answer that question for myself.
One thing I learned in this crazy and wonderful world of crossdressing is that I did not choose this life. I feel it just is a part of me as a person. I believe we all have something in common as crossdressers and usually our need to crossdress started at a young age. We all usually go through the same experiences and stages but we all have our individuality.
For me I started at 5 years old sneaking my sister's clothes and as I got older sneaking my mother's clothes. I felt ashamed, embarrassed, alone, scared but most of all I felt normal!
I've been dressing all throughout my life but have managed as a guy, going off to college, studying mechanical engineering and also accounting.
I've been lucky to meet a nice woman, marry and have a wonderful son!
I am truly blessed. I love my wife and son very much!
I still crossdress but I keep it private. My wife does not accept it and I don't need to push the issue. She knows I crossdress and buy womens clothes but she wants nothing to do with it.
I respect her wishes and do not dress in front of my family.
I think if your marraige is important to you then you need to be open to your wife's feelings and let her express herself regarding this aspect of your life.
All the girls here have given you tremendous advice and they all speak from experience. Try to put yourself in your wife's shoes and try to understand where she is coming from.
Also if you have children you must consider their needs as well.
I wish you and your wife well.
emmi
