I guess maybe I am trying to emulate her? But I'm not crazy like Texas Chainsaw crazy and try to take over her life and skin her nothing like that... I know that is not what you are saying but I kinda get the feeling that maybe some of you are looking at me really weird right now, I don't want that.

Yes, I wear her stuff because I am too scared to buy my own stuff that fits "me". I wish I could...it would be so much easier and I wish I had the guts to buy forms too. I just figured this would be a safe and easy answer to my problem...but I see maybe it's not. I wouldn't care personally if I were done this way but that is me and how I feel about things.

I'd like to do nothing more than tell her and have her support me. But I don't think that'll ever happen...I could tell her, sure, but I don't think she'll ever accept it...one way or another. She did buy me those things...and I don't know why. That was before she saw the pics and when I told her I wore that bra she was really disgusted looking with me. She really gave me some shit about those pictures too and I still hear stuff about that, especially when she's mad with me. She won't support my cd'ing...she doesn't know I actually do it she just knows I tried it...that is what I told her...i was curious. She didn't buy that I'm sure...

I guess it's best to scrap this idea then because the ones who said I'd be digger myself a bigger hole are right. You say it would cause me more problems than I already have...you just don't know my relationship with my wife. It is like living with a buddy or a roommate and not a spouse...let me tell you. I could go into great detail but I don't think I should do that openly here for everyone to read. If she ever finds these post I've made...a moderator will have to do some IP blocking I'm sure. I'm trying to be careful as to not give too many details about myself so maybe she'll never figure it out.