I started when I was just out of elementary school, I guess I was about 12. I watched a show called Cardcaptors, which is an anime of the "magical girl" genre, just enough action to be interesting to a decent amount of guys, but everything else about the show was very girly. I started dressing because the main character wears all these really cute outfits, practically a different one every episode, and I wanted to be cute like that too. Coupled with being a very intelligent and curious little boy, I've always wanted to know what it was like to be a girl, what the differences were in how things felt and how you thought and everything. The closest I could get was to get all dolled up and try to imagine it!

Got caught by my parents twice within a year, though, and they wanted me to go to see a counselor and have therapy and all kinds of stuff because they thought something was wrong with me. There isn't anything wrong with me! I'm just super curious and have a huge imagination and like the way silk and satin and velvet feel, plus the tighter fitting clothing was so different from everything else I normally wore, it made me feel at home. Back off, 'rents!

So, I ended up suppressing it for years. No more CDing between 7th grade and 12th, except for one "mis-match" day during spirit week in 8th grade when I snuck a couple of things to school to "mis-match" with my guy clothes. Nobody thought anything of it. Then, it started back up a little bit, and it's been a fairly constant feeling since then, though I've rarely been able to actually dress. It even goes away sometimes, for a week or two, if I'm occupied with something else, like extensive amounts of school work or problems with family/friends/SO. During those times, I miss it a little. When I do stop for a while, it's usually due to a spell of the "what the hell am I doing?" thoughts. I always seem to come back though. Need to make sure the SO knows that soon...

I ramble in my posts too much, lol, sorry for all my long ones.

As an ending note, in relation to what the thread started out as, I haven't had any breast forms yet, just socks T_T I'm hoping to get some, though, I envy GG's for them sometimes.