Maybe both Orens and Blanchard are full of crap. And maybe both are dancing around the truth. There are no two of us who are exactly alike, so our reasons behind our transgenderism are not exactly alike, either. I don't know if autogynephilia is more a reason or a symptom when it comes to me, but I do know that I don't fit snugly into either Orens's or Blanchard's moulds.
What I do know is this: And I'm going out on a limb here. It's not comfortable for me to divulge this. I am sexually aroused by the thought of physically being female. The thought of having breasts, female genitelia, slender feminine arms and hands, long pretty hair, no facial hair...the whole gamut....is arousing to me. The thought of having sex as a woman (note: NOT as a homosexual male!) is arousing to me. As a man, I find no sexual attraction in men. But if I fantasize myself as a woman, I find the whole idea much more attractive. Confusing, no?
Maybe I crossdress because I'm autogynephilic. Maybe I'm autogynephilic because I'm a crossdresser. I'm not sure. But I'm both. And whereas I have some transexual tendencies, I'm not transexual. Or I have opted to not be transexual. I'm also not homosexual, nor am I a lesbian trapped in a man's body. Were I female, I'd likely have sex with men. But as a male, I have no desire whatsoever to have sex with men. So neither theory fits me to a T, and I'm sure the actual truth of the matter is as varied as the individuals to whom it is supposed to apply.
