I've always felt 'different' from others in that I've never understood the male/female dichotomy - especially the clothing 'rules' !
Although I always wanted to wear more 'girly' clothes, I didn't start doing that openly until I was about thirty.
Over the years since then I've grown more confident with my dressing although I've never tried to 'pass' - a shaved head and beard tend to give clues !
I've suffered from depression for many years.
I've also taken the COGIATI test a few times - every time being classed as Androgynous.
Some years ago, after much research I started using Estraderm patches and Spironolactone to grow breasts - which are now a nice 36b. :D
The drugs have brought unexpected psychological benefits - I feel more balanced and happy with myself.
I do NOT want to transition.
I feel uneasy where people who have a 'femme' name etc are concerned.

Last November I went to see a Gender Dysphoria specialist who told me I was transsexual (although I prefer to 'categorise' myself as a male lesbian - someone who would probably have been better born female, and is only interested in females).

That visit seems to have had a profound effect on me - I'm calmer and less worried about what others think. I have a better idea of what I am. I'm also more likely to wear girly clothes day-to-day.

The annoying thing is that because I don't want to transition, I can't get any support from the NHS and I'm not covered by any of the employment discrimination laws. :Angry3:

What am I ?
To me, I am me. A person who is genetically male with larger than usual (for males) breasts. I dress as I want to dress - I enjoy being girly, and I don't particularly care what other people think. If they judge me on my appearance, they're usually wrong and probably not worth knowing anyway

Does my girly dress sense (on which girl friends have complemented me) make me unworthy of the society we live in ? - no !
Does society's reaction to me alienate me and cause me to relish it's impending downfall ? - in general, yes !

Luckily I have many friends, all of which treat me the same whether I'm wearing jeans and t-shirt or skirt and knee boots !

If I have any advice for anyone, it's just be yourself. I know from my own experiences that sometimes that's a lot easier to say than do but after spending many years on this path of self-exploration and knowledge, I can honestly say that it's worth it - even though I might not agree when I'm feeling down (a state I'm experiencing less and less !).
Where others are concerned, encourage people to ask questions if you can - not only will that help them understand, it also helps you.

Sorry if this appears a bit disjointed in places but for me it's such a big subject that it's sometimes difficult to mention all I want to and still be concise. One day I will start writing that book !