hi... my back ground is scottish. name . Loch-head .. head of the loch . that all so means i can wear a kilt ...that is a part of my back ground ...a birth right if you like . that as a male is mine to take or be given .
on the other detail i am a women as well . andro. a transfemale . who will all ways be in transition knowing i can never ever be a male or a women . yet being both .
where does that put me . some one who will allways be different . . yet haveing been able to function as a male for some 50 years not a real male in some ways. yes . not every thing .........i am wired both male & female . i see things both ways as i did 45 years ago . not that i understood what was going on even at 10 i was different . so its all ways been there .
Now .. i know i can live as a women as far as i can go . body wise i was happy with my body in the main as a male this is the hard bit i saw some things that i was not sure about the water works dept . yet i did not have my womb a delema . yes this then starts to sound contray . because i am thinking both ways at the same time ..try that on & see how hard that is then youll know what we go through . for some its i am a male i need to be a women its not like as has been said . a mid life crisies . for me thats bull ......shit .....i have had that leveled at me so i know ....no this is from birth well. conception really ..so we have other detail to go through .
what i see is this only came out to me 2 years ago so now i have got it right . 59 years to get to know who i am & be able to live as me ... no one told me . no one said oh you are this or that . i mean ...NO...ONE...this came from in side , of me
So the ?? s . are.. do we know really when asked who or what we are . some do others of us we dont for a very long time & it would be very worng . for us to assume that . we can help i know that ..oh dear this is & can of worms not one to be taken lightly.. what we need to remember is our lives are so different ....our back ground .s countys so much is different .. i am not a fan of the labels . what i see is people who are .. hopefully not like me .. who are different . & we can live as one group of people getting to know others & learning about who we are .......
...noeleena...
So yes our understanding of who we are is now . how we get there that will depend on us as individuls .