Hi Renyta,
Sad to know what happened to you in your childhood. It might definately have had some impact in terms of your moving towards feminity. I also had gyno.. and the breasts were becoming difficult to handle. They used to come in between things I was doing and it was difficult to live with them .
As with you , I also prayed to get boobs in childhood and I got them in teenage years. I was also felt sometimes and felt quite bad about it . The shameful part was not able to wear a tight shirt and to turn the chest away from a blowing fan. So even though I was happy in one way, I was not happy in another. But in college I decided that I do not want them anymore and had them removed. Was it good or not I don't know but it was a self esteem booster where my Guy side was dominant while I was supressing my womanhood.
It is quite difficult to understand if the gyno.. condition was the reason for Cding. I do not think so because I am aware that I was dressing up before I made that prayer:D. Hence it might have added to the already existing feeling. But I say that removing them was also welcome because I was not able to live my life in a easy way. Looking back I feel I took the right decision but that is totally personal . My teenage years were full of confusion and absolutely no one to turn to . Those were horrible years and I would not want to revisit them .
So i guess you are not alone in this condition and if my POV helped you , that is great
Tina
