You have all given me some insight, and alot to think about
I have my two gg friends and one is here in town and one is about 30 miles away both are great online friends and have given me support and advice, they want me to come and hang out, I have not at this time done so they both have bf and even thou they say they (bf) are ok with my dressing I feel funny about it, I have always hide it, did it in secret, felt very privet feelings (sexual and emotional)
that being said this might be my feelings of dread and fear of sharing hidden thoughts and feeling with other males cd or not , if its a gg then I empathies with and feel more at ease with. and want to share with them more , ill half to think about this more. Thank you all :D